THOUGHTS ABOUT COLLEGE

Actually, these are random thoughts about my course.

I really want to be a doctor. Yeah. Super.

Kaya lang, sobrang tinatadtad na ako ng course ko.

For three weeks, I had several long tests in each of my subjects. Insufficient pa nga 'yung hours ng tulog ko. Plus, I didn't really do well in some of my long tests. At perteh pa 'yung isang subject ko na A-able sana kaso may perteh akong prof na super doooper perteh kung magpa-quiz at hanggang ngayon eh hasta-pasado lang ako sa lahat ng quizzes niya. PERTEH.

Haaah. Yes, I really have no right to complain about all of these loads kasi may iba pang may mas matitinding karanasan about their college loads compared sa akin. May ibang walang tulog, nag-aaral nga kaso hindi pa rin pumapasa... Hay naku. Ewan. Writing in blogs tends to limit my thoughts from blabbing. Ang bilis kong mag-isip, kaya lang di mahabol ng mga kamay ko yung bilis ng pag-iisip ko. PErteh. 'Yun din ang nagiging problema ko sa mga exams.

Perteh. Enough of this.

Buti na lang may Grey's Anatomy na nagpapaengganyo sa aking mag-aral at minsan din ay nagiging source ko ng inspirasyon upang maging physician... surgeon sana.

"I can't think of a single reason why I should be a surgeon, but I can think of a thousand reasons why I should quit. They make it hard on purpose... there are lives in our hands. There comes a moment when it's more than just a game, and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away. I could quit but here's the thing, I love the playing field."

---Meredith Grey

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Ok guys. This is all for now. I think I'm getting thinner as the days go by. Hahaha.

By the way, ATENEO WON against DLSU. I didn't really expect such event to happen considering the one-year time off of DLSU in UAAP. Pero, ang saya ng game! Good job, basketball players!

This game made me realize that indeed, miracles do happen.

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God help me. It is good as done.

A REMINDER TO THYSELF

Danica/Gem-Gem, you need to

MANAGE YOUR TIME EFFICIENTLY!!!
MANAGE YOUR TIME EFFICIENTLY!!!
MANAGE YOUR TIME EFFICIENTLY!!!

First year high school pa 'yang proper time management!

Dapat ngayon kabisado mo na yaaaaaan!!!

TAKING A BREAK

Goodness... Katatapos lang ng Health Sciences Amazing Race kanina. Thanks for all the people who participated in the race! Without you, wala talagang race na magaganap. Salamat guys.

Sa Core ng HSc Amazing Race, I love you all. Thanks for all the hardwork.

And to God, for listening to my prayers during my SA class. I am loved.

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I could have done better. Complacency kills you. I'm doing the same mistakes over and over again. Sabi nga ni Meredith Grey,

"What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again."

I have to do this better next time. I have to. I need to.
I don't want to feel this pain any longer.

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God help me.

UPDATE!!!

Yey! Saya. Ngayon na ako muling makakapagblog!

Hurray for me!

So, let's start off with this event: ORSEM 20007 : Soundcheck

Last Apr-May, I auditioned to be a TNT (Talk and Tours) for the orsem. Sila yung mga naghahandle ng mga freshies during the orsem. After two interviews and three training days, yey, TNT na talaga ako! Sobrang nakapapagod, pero hindi mapapalitan ang saya na binigay ng event na ito sa akin. It was such a GREAT way to start this school year! I'm glad I started this out RIGHT.

Naging partner TNT ko si Kuya Nonon (3-BS Psy) at naging Sec-Mob Log ko si Nicole. Sobrang saya ng trio namin, kaso sayang nga lang noong na-late si Kuya Nonon noong first day ng Orsem. So, naging solo-TNT muna ako for that day. Tinulungan naman ako ng ibang mga TNT volunteers (salamat nga pala kay Aids). Hinandle ko pala ang block XX1. Block 'yan ng health sciences majors kaya naman hindi na ako masyadong nahirapang i-handle sila. Mababait naman silang lahat. May mga makukulit, medyo may mga mabagal maglakad... The usual freshmen. May mga magaganda, pogi (:P)... At marami pang iba. Masaya nga ako kasi naging close ako sa mga freshies ko. Sana somehow na-touch ko ang mga buhay nila... Sana nga...

Nakapapagod talaga, pero yun nga, masaya! Oo nga pala! Starstruck ako noong Orsem!!! Haay naku, kasi naman oh, pumasok sa Ateneo si Rica Peralejo!!! Oo! Sobra! Ang bata kaya niyang tingnan. Lunch show noon, kaya naman naisipan kong magpa-picture with Rica. Buti na lang nandoon si Faller kaya naman nakapag-pic ako with Rica. Mukha talaga siyang college student. Hindi halata na medyo may edad na siya! Ang bait pa niya!

Wow! Thank God for giving me the courage and the energy to become a TNT! Mago-audition ulit ako to become a TNT next orsem! TNT now, TNT forevaah!!! haahah!!!

Okay... So next update! DEBUT NI TAL!!!

Oh my oh my! Sobra kaya ito! Ang tindi talaga ng pagmamahal ng Illumina kay Tal! Biruin mo, sobrang pinaghandaan talaga ang dance performance at ang skit presentation. Naging emcee nga pala kami ni Kbo sa kanyang debut. Of course, habang nageemcee kami ni Kbo, may mga sinisingit kaming mga jokes--as usual. hehehe... May mga iniignite kaming mga tuksuhan--mga Dodong-Inday, KaMor, etc. Kaso di pwedeng tuksuhin si Tal with her lovitoots na si Ching. Hehehe.. Mahirap nang mabisto nina Fedeserio at Lea eh. Hahaha! Napressure ako ng konti kay Granny Gloria ha. In fairness, medyo demanding siya (peace, TAL) hehehe. But then, over-all, ok naman siya. Mabait na rin. Sabi nga ni Tal, intindihin na lang daw siya. Hahaha...

Ang masaya pang bagay tungkol sa debut ni Tal is the fact that it serve as a semi-reunion to most of the Illumina people! As in!!! FIRST TIME KONG NAKITA ULIT SI AIKO AFTER ONE WHOLE YEAR!!! As in, sobrang saya ko kaya!!! Idol ko siya sa pagkanta eh. SObrang nabighani na naman ako sa kanilang song number nina Hubs at Ttn! Nakameet pa ako ng new friends like Kitty and Jayce (tama ba ang spelling?). Ang saya talaga ng debut ni TAAL! And of course, how could I forget Tal's cousins? Cuzinz talaga niya sobrang ang tindi ng mga genes! The Camarao blood was reigning that night! Lalo na yung si Kuya Odjie ba yun? ahahah! Joke lang Tal!

Sayang nga lang kasi na-lowbat ako. NiyaH!! Hindi tuloy ako nakapagkuha ng mga pictures. Sayang tuloy! Ang gaganda't gagwapo pa naman namin that night. Cocktail + Long sleeves na black or white. Oh Yes. And Crystal was at her best that night! Ang ganda talaga ng friend ko... Mana sa the Force. Hahaha! June 16 was the best!

Next update: 2nd year na kami! SOPHOMORES NAA!!!

Yes mga kaibigan. Time really flies so fast that we couldn't keep track of everything! And now, I have an extra busy schedule. Yeah, my English and Filipino life in Ateneo was over. Pero naman oh! Perteh! Pinalitan ito ng Theology and Sociology and Anthropology (ang nakababaliw na Philosophy and more Theology ay darating pa next year!). Basa. Read. Basa. Read. HAAAAAAH! I have to give extra effort in the readings!

Hah! May Economics na naman kami! Naku Ma'am Muico, sapian mo ako! Ang tindi pa ng prof namin ngayon. He worked with Pres. Ramos before--si Dr. Cielito Habito. Kasabay pa namin ang mga Eco-H at Eco majors sa Eco102! Nakuu... Plus Chem... CHEM!! Sobrang gusto ko pa naman ng Chem... Kaso ang chem namin ngayon sobrang pinahirap! May mga prelab na ngayon sa chem, plus may postlabs pa! Extra-strict din sila ngayon. You really can't predict everything in Chem nowadays, unlike what it was in high school. College na talaga!!! COLLEGE!

Sa Orgs naman. I've decided that I have to be at least active in one of my orgs and join some orgs para naman magkaroon ako ng maraming kaibigan at mahasa pa ang mga kakayahan ko. COA-ExTeam member na ako since summer. Of course gusto ko ring magpaka-active sa other orgs. So, I joined the Pre-Med Society of the Ateneo, Ateneo Comelec, and of course, Enterteynment Para sa Tao, Bayan. Lansangan, at Diyos (ENTABLADO). Sobrang nasiyahan ako sa Enta! Ang saya-saya ng mga tao doon, plus I really love to act. Kahit na magtrabaho lang sa production ok lang. Socio-Political Org pa ito. Naghahayag sila ng mga isyu na kailangang harapin nating mga Pilipino sa paraan ng teatro (yesss...). I do hope I will be able to do a good job for my orgs this year. I want to strive harder. I don't want to blow these orgs off this year. Yes! Kaya ko ito!

Hala, sobrang tindi naman nito. Nag Muay-Thai pala ako for my PE! Sobrang nakapapagod! Pamatay! Buong katawan ko nanginginig at naninigas sa sakit ng mga pamaol! Pero, ang saya ng Muay-Thai. Kasama ko kasi mga kablock ko sa PE eh. Kaya naman nagiging masaya ang lahat ng mga ginagawa namin. :) The best talaga ang XX(2010)! The BEST DAMN FREAKIN' BLOCK EVAAH!

Stress. That's the word for the year guys! Yes. This year would be one of the most challenging years in HSc. Haaay naku. Kakayanin namin itong lahat! Baka matae kami nang wala sa oras pero ok lang! Game pa rin!

Oo nga pala, I moved to Room 1-C since May 1! Simula noong June naging kumpleto na kami rito sa room. Kasama ko si Gemma (1 BS AMF) at si Sherry (1 BS HSc). Yey! Masaya! Hehehe. Haay naku. But then again, nami-miss ko pa rin ang the one and the only, the most emo person I've ever known--si Ate Mian!!! Kung nasaan ka man ngayon Ate Mian, I wish you all the best in life! I miss you roommate! Sana makahanap ka ng pogi sa Canada! That's the spirit!!! Hahahaha!!!

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Haaay Naku Lord. That was such a long entry. Anyway, at least you had a glimpse of my life nowadays. Sorry kung minsan di na muna ako nakakapagblog mga readers. Busy ang buhay college eh. Priorities first, ika nga. And I want to make this year a memorable one. Yes.... Ang saya-saya!!!

Lord, help me..

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Tama, all of the pictures I took recently are available in my multiply site. But then again, you still have to add me before you can view the pictures. Of course, sabi nga ni Pare, mahirap nang kumakalat ang mga pics sa net! Hahaha! Privacy! Privacy!

but then again i guess not all people care about the privacy of another in this generation. rubbish.

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God bless everyone!!!

ON BLOGGING

Dapat about the orsem itong post na ito. Kaso, gipit na naman ako sa oras.

Dapat next friday makapagblog ako ng mahabang mahaba! hehe.

Anyway, napansin ko lang ano, tatlong taon na pala akong nagbla-blog.
3 years na pala itong beloved blog ko!
3 years na akong nangungulit sa net!
3 years na akong daldal nang daldal dito sa net!

haay naku. 3 years na pala.
Ang bilis naman ng panahon.

Ngayon, may blog na ang Illumina!

just click this

ILLUMINAte

to check out the site.

Kelangan kong magback-to-blogging. I miss it. I miss my readers (hehe... kahit imaginary ok lang!).

Oo nga pala, I moved my Photo Blog from photobucket to multiply.com. Hindi ko tinanggal yung mga pictures sa photobucket ha. Nandoon pa rin ang mga iyon. Pero, from now on, sa Multiply na ako magpopost ng mga pictures guys. Therefore, you have to add me sa multiply para ma-view ninyo ang mga pictures. :P

Click this link to view my multiply site.

O sige na mga pare at mga mare. Mag ke-chem pa ako.
God bless everyone!

HAAAA! SUMMER

Yess... Ngayon lang ako nakapag-blog ulit guys... Hah... Obviously.

Nabigatan ako sa load ko last summer. I now understand why there are only six units required for us to take during the summer semester. Tkte... Perteh! Nag-nine units pa ako. Harder to breathe, harder to cope up with lots of requirements.

I already received my grades. I could have done better.

Anyway, Illumina gave me a surprise birthday party last Apr. 28, 2007 sa Shakey's-Katipunan. Surprise sana, kaso nabisto ko kaagad. Haha... Pero, salamat pa rin Illumina!

Gift nila sa akin.


The People sa Shakey's. Taken by Cecile.

SALAMAT ILLUMINA!

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Before the summer sem started, our family went to Leyte to visit our relatives. Tumaba ako sa Leyte, I knew it. Tulog-kain-higa-tulog-kain. Ganoon ang buhay ko roon.

Pero, ang saya ng mga ilog at beaches doon. Ang linis kasi... Sobra!

Emo pic


Sa may pantalan around 5pm


Ako at Dad. Pic after maligo sa ilog.


ako at si Ma


Cj at si Ma

Nangitim din ako. Hahaha...

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Tama... I have a new pet dog named Fudge. Sinabi ko na 'yon sa entries ko before. Eto naman ang pic niya:

Si Fudge. Ang Bakla kong aso.

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Sorry for a boring post. Alam ko boring.
Sorry ulit.

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Miss ko na si CJ.

I miss you my kapatids.

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I've been busy with COA (council of organizations of the ateneo). Org ko kasi ito. Hinding-hindi ko na ito pakakawalan! Seryoso na ako sa COA! GO! OH YEAH!

Appointed na ako as Mgr for Logistics. HA! Help me Lord!

Plus, I'm also a volunteer for our feeding program sa Health Sciences. OH YEAH!
Gagawa na kami ng Health Sciences ORg! OH YEAH!

And now, I'm planning to join Entablado. I have to make good use of this talent... :P

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Nagapply ako for a TNT (Talk and Tours) spot for the Orsem 2007.

Thank God I passed after 2 pertehng interviews and 3 training days!!!

NAKAPAPAGOD!!! pero... sobrang SAYA!!!

nakapagpicture pa ako with RICA PERALEJO! hahaha!

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Next post: about SOUNDCHECK: Orsem 2007.

I AM

B U S Y

with school work,
with some org works,
and with my new room here at the dorm.

sorry I can't seem to update often even if I have a 24/7 internet connection here in my dorm.

babawi ako next time! pramis!

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God, please help me...

MABILIS LANG ITO

Ang sarap ng buhay bilang si Danica Pasia.
Lalo na nang makilala ko kayo, Illumina.
Tinupad niyo ang selebrasyong inaasam ng puso ko.
Binuo niyo ang napakalaking guwang sa pagkatao ko.
Salamat sa simpleng sorpresang handaang pinaghandaan niyo ;) para sa akin.
Salamat sa dambuhalang birthday card na ginawa niyo para sa akin.
At salamat salamat salamat sa walang hanggang pagkakaibigang inialay natin sa isa't isa.
Salamat. Salamat. Salamat!

Next post, isasalaysay ko na ang LAHAT ng mga pangyayari. Pramis.
Lilipat muna ako ng room sa dorm.
O siya, sige. Ayun lang.

God bless!

DISE OTSO

Happy birthday to ME!
Happy birthday to ME!
Happy birthday
Happy birthday,
Happy birthday to ME!

When I was around 6 or 7 years old, Ate Cel (my yaya) and I were talking what it would be like when I'll celebrate my 18th birthday. Back then I didn't have any idea about the whatevers of having a debut. In fact, I didn't even know how to spell debut during that time.

She said that I would have a very big celebration in our house or in a 5-star hotel in Davao city. She added that I would have a very gorgeous gown, and my parents would be so proud of me. Lahat ng Bangkal imbitado! Lahat ng Pasia imbitado! Lahat ng Pureza imbitado! Lahat! Lahaaat!

I really really looked forward into having that kind of celebration...

And now, I'm 18. Debut ko na.

And where's the celebration? Haha... Simpleng simba na lang... Actually, I'm just going to visit the chapel here in school. Apparently I still have 2 group works to do at 2pm and at 3pm. As you get older, you tend to be more conscious of how you spend money. At since krisis ngayon, tipid muna.

I'm just going to make this a simple celebration... And I'm just going to keep it to myself.

Haah...

Again, Happy birthday to ME!

BUHAY NG WALANG INTERNET

Perteh. Wala akong internet connection sa dorm. Pinutulan ako ni Elaine. Sa May na siguro ako magpapakabit sabay ng paglipat ko ng room sa 1C.

Naku, ang dami ng mga nangyari for the past weeks. Hindi ko kayang pagisa-isahin ang lahat ng mga ito ngayon kasi nasa internet cafe ako. Plus, nagtitipid pa ako.

Hala tama, magb-birthday na pala ako.
Tiguwang na jud. 18 na ako eh!

Limang tulog na lang! 18 na ako! (sa april 28 mga tao... don't forget to greet me!!)

At eto, gagawa ako ng wishlist (na alam ko namang di effective at di ibibigay sa akin ng mga tao because I tried it before pero parang wala naman talaga akong nakuhang ganoon from them.) para sa nalalapit kong kaarawan:

- Microsoft Vista ('yung Ultimate ha.) dapat original
- Ibigay niyo sa akin 'yung laptop ng Pare ko. or better, bigyan niyo ako ng Laptop (Compaq/HP or Apple only)
- Bagong muscles sa shoulders at near my vertebrae. Sumasakit eh. I need a massage!!!
- Condo. Dapat suite ha... Plus, malapit sa AdMU.
- Membership fee for the Moro Gym.
- Trip to Boracay!
- Trip around the World!
- Ticket every break papuntang Davao at pabalik ng Manila!
- Pamaypay ng maganda. Sobrang init kasi dito sa Manila.
- Fitness gloves... :P
- Chux. Converse na shoes. Dapat black or denim 'yung dating para masaya.
- Utak na matalino.
- Surprise Party... Ginagawa ko kasi 'yan sa mga friends ko. Sana ako rin gawan nila... (nagpaparinig ba?)
- Sangkatutak na masayang jokes. Hindi corny ha. Expert na ako sa corny eh. Gusto ko naman 'yung mga masaya. Namimiss ko na kasi 'yung mga ganoon eh.
- BRING MARIAN HERE IN MANILA.
- Sana manalo sa eleksyon si Chiz Escudero.
- Spy Gadget. PLEASE!
- Help me in History, Fil, and Psy.
- Yacht.
- iPOD?
- Maganda at nakaiiyak na LETTER for me from you. Pinaghandaan ha!
- and last but not the least, WORLD PEACE.


O ayan. Sana naman ngayong 18 na ako, makuha ko ang at least 5 diyan.

Basta...

GREET ME ON MY BIRTHDAY! IT'S ON SATURDAY ALREADY!

FOR THE KG OR WHATEVER YOU CALL IT...

The best thing
That ever happened to me
Or the best thing
That was ever given to me
This school year
Was the
Most Unexpected Thing
That could ever happen in
My Life...

This school year,
I've been inclose friendship
With the
Most Unexpected People
In our batch.
Actually, di naman talaga unexpected
Pero, unexpected pa rin.
Ang Labo...

Anyway,
Without Them,
I could never have conquered my first year here in college.
Conquered in the sense that
I could never have been
That emotionally stable
If they were not there.
I could never have been
Academically stable
If there's such a term
If they weren't there

It's like having a
Security Blanket
I mean,
A Security Blanket
Which is Full of Life.
I Never had a dull moment
With these girls.

Ice Cream
Cake
Happy Homes
Or
Even the crispy Anchovies worth 58 pesos
Had never been that more delicious
More tasty
And more fulfilling
Until I ate those with them

The Secrets
I've now learned to
Keep My Mouth Shut
And Keep all of those words
And experiences
In My Heart

Oh. Ang Labo Ata Nun Ah.
Basta, eto lang ang masasabi ko...

WHY?
Why would everything end
When everything seems to be going all right?
Why
Why would we need to separate ways
When everything says
That we must all be together?

Ang labo ulit.
Basta eto lang.

I will Miss You
Tal
Bex
Cia

...

Katipunan will never be the same without you.
I think I'm gonna eat Happy Homes
All by myself from now on.

But I'll never regret
What we had.
And
I will and always
Treasure this Friendship
Forever.

I will Keep the Cellphone Chain... Or whatever you may call it.

I will Miss You!

ISANG TAON NA!

Naaalala mo pa ba ang mga oras na tayo'y magkasama?
Kaibigan ika'y kasabay sa mga tawang tila wala nang bukas...
Naaalala mo pa ba ang mga luhang nilunod sa ulan?
Ito ang mga panahong damdami'y nag-aalab...

At kung di mo makita ang liwanag ng bukas,
'Wag na 'wag kang matatakot
May kasama ka...

Aalis na pala...
Di man lang namalayan
Ang oras ay naubos na...
At sa ating paglisan
Ang tanging pabaon ay ang pangako...

March 29, 2006

Sabay nating ginuhit ang mga pangarap sa alapaap.
Sabay nating tinahak ang daang mapaglaro.
Madadapa't babangon, mangangarap at mangagako
Ito ang mga panahong iaalay sa'yo.

ISANG TAON na tayong alumi ng Pisay, Illumina!
I miss everyone...
The friendship that we built had been the best thing that ever happened to me in my life.
Thank you for keeping the bond strong.

God bless Illumina!

VIDEOS!!!

These are new videos we recorded yesterday at Bex and Ciara's boarding house.

I really hope you'd enjoy watching them:

The Best in ME -- OUr Version
The Emo Video... Lots of hair mga pare!



Especially for You -- OUr Version
Pa-cute video. Waa



Eto nakalimutan ko ang title... Basta Pussycat Dolls na kanta.
Waaha.

Ang saya ano? Sana ganito na lang forever...

Pero di puwede eh.

ONE HELL WEEK TO GO

And babalik na ako ulit sa Davao.

My flight is on March 31, 345pm, CebuPac.

And I just can't wait to see them again. :|

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Depressing.

Yes, it's depressing to know that the Katip Godesses will separate ways next semester.

...

Wala na akong masasabi pa tungkol diyan.

Basta... Nakakasad.

:(

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Papel na Nangangatwiran sa Filipino12 on Mar26 (title na lang!)
Math17 Finals on Mar26 (!!!)
Physics14.1 Class Standing announcement on Mar29 pm at Faura (GOODNESS... Kinakabahan na ako!)
Lit Animation and Podcast Project (by Keena) on Mar28 (salamat Keena mabuhay ang mga BFA ID!)
Lit Finals (written) on Mar28 (HELPP!!!)
En12 Research Paper Final Draft (OH GOD HELP ME) on Mar29
Physics14.1 Finals on Mar30 (Comprehensive...WAAAAAAH!!!)
Lit Bonus Paper about the Vagina Monologues anytime Next Week.

Yakang-yaka ito!!!
Pray for Me.

OF WOUNDS AND SCARS

People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers.

What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.

~meredith grey

OO

Yes, I bought a new cell phone.

And yes, I bought a Globe sim pack.

And yes, nasira na 'yung goal kong maging Smart subscriber forever. Apparently that thing doesn't totally work well for me nowadays. Sobrang napapamahal yung gastos ko sa katetext ng mga kaklase ko dahil halos lahat sila Globe. Kaya naman, nag-ipon ako para makabili ng bagong cellphone na Globe.

And tarrraah! Ayan, bagong cell phone. Binili namin nina Mara and Nicole sa Sta. Lucia kahapon ng hapon.

PERO, active smart subscriber pa rin naman ako. At di yan magbabago.

Haaay naku... two weeks na lang, tapos na ang sem!

And I have four papers more to go : 2 for english, 1 for fil, 1 for lit. I really hope I would be able to finish them on time. I believe I can. Oo! Kaya ko ito.

May math long test pa kami sa wednesday! Haaay naku... Differential equations. Nagfi-feeling Math major na ako. Haha! I love math. Nyahh..

Oo nga pala, I'm planning to transfer to another room here in Dormitoryana (Hopefully kasama ko na sina Niña at kapatid niya). Aalis na kasi si Ate Mian. Pupunta na siya ng Canada.

Haay naku basta. Kailangan ko ng roommate. Yun lang. Tapos.

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Grey's anatomy quotes:

"First, do no harm. As doctors, we pledge to live by this oath. But harm happens and then guilt happens. And there is no oath for how to deal with that. Guilt never goes anywhere on its own, it brings its friends - doubt and insecurity."

"At any given moment, the brain has 14 billion neurons firing at a speed of 450 miles per hour. We don’t have control over most of them. When we get a chill... goose bumps. When we get excited... adrenaline. The body naturally follows it’s impulses, which I think is part of what makes it so hard for us to control ours. Of course, sometimes we have impulses we would rather not control, that we later wish we had."

"The body is a slave to it's impulses. But the thing that makes us human is what we can control. After the storm, after the rush, after the heat of the moment has passed, we can cool off and clean up the messes we made. We can try to let go of what was. Then again..."

"We are left with a choice. Either let the guilt throw you back into the behavior that got you into trouble in the first place, or learn from the guilt and do your best to move on."

"To make it -- really make it -- as a surgeon, it takes major commitment. We have to be willing to pick up that scalpel and make a cut that may or may not do more damage than good. It's all about being committed, because if we're not? We have no business picking up that scalpel in the first place."

"No one believes that their life will turn out just kind of okay. We all think we are going to be great. And from the day we decide to be surgeons, we are filled with expectation. Great expectations of who we will be, where we will go. And then... we get there."

"We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still, the expected's just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives."

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Pray for me...

FREE TIME

Hell Week is coming up.

Actually, kaka-Hell week ko lang.

I just took our last Physics long test earlier. Sana ok 'yung nakuha kong marka doon.

Anyway, update.

I've been crying for the past few days. Ngayon ko lang narealize na mas ok pala kung nilalabas mo kaysa iniipon mo lang sa loob mo.

Haay buhay... I've never been so hopeful in my entire life (i do keep on repeating this statement). Kaya naman, I will try and try, even though I fail. And I'll try harder and harder each time I fall.

Dahil gusto ko... I'll do everything just for this to be done.

Training... love to!

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Good news!

Nagfinals kami sa PE last sunday. PE ko pala is arnis.

Nakasali ako sa inter-class tournament. Guess what? Champion ako sa division namin. Oh yeah!

I love arnis.

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Two weeks more... Babalik na ako sa Davao.
Pray for me people of the world! Yakang-yaka ko ito!

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Last friday, we watched the play, The Vagina Monologues, for the Women's week celebration.
Oh yeah! mabuhay ang lahat ng mga Babae!
Sobrang naloka ako sa play. Tawa ako ng tawa, and at the same time sobrang nagkaroon ako ng bagong insights sa pagkababae ng mga babae.
I am so damn proud to be a woman!
Neknek niyo mga lalaki kayo!
Who needs a handgun when you got a semi-automatic?

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Lit proj & finals.
En reflection and research papers.
Fil argumentative paper.
Math reporting (on friday!), last LT, and finals.
Physics finals.

God bless us all!

QUOTING

At the end of a day like this,
a day when so many prayers are answered and so many aren't
we take our miracles where we find them
we reach across the gap
and sometimes
against all odds
against all logic
we touch
~meredith

PART 2

I never knew this could reach part two.

I tried. I failed.

tears fell...

sniff.

dried.

gathered all the senses.

I tried again. t-y-p-e-d. sent.

kept in this optimistic state

that they will reconsider.

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I have never been this hopeful in my whole life.

BOLD AND DARING

I finally e-mailed Pare.

I guess I do not have enough courage to talk to him via the phone (I would end up crying on the other line kung ganoon ang situation).

And so, now, I'm prepared

of

what would happen...

and i'm still me,

doing my best to keep this optimistic self

and hoping... just hoping

that he will reconsider.

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I have a Math LT tomorrow.
Pray for me.
God bless people!