MAY BUKAS PA

masakit. ang lahat-lahat.

-wala akong pera. wala akong pamasahe papuntang ortigas sa thursday para mapasa yung medschool requirements ko. natatakot din ako na baka bitin ng P500 ang application fee. makakamed pa kaya ako?
-in connection to this, pano kaya ako kakain? buti na lang may pangkabuhayan package na pinadala nina mama sa akin pabalik dito. so i believe that will fill me up for the next days. wala nga lang kanin.
-di ako puwedeng humingi ng pera. dahil alam kong mali na naman ang pagmamanage ko ng pera last december. kailangan kong maghintay ng jan15. much was already given yet still more than what was planned out was spent for a lot of things that didn't directly help me out (eg.of things that directly help me out: pagkain ko, pamasahe ko, etc). which was quite disappointing
-too much of something is bad. from the start it was made clear that we need to take things as simple as possible. yet what do we have now? possible (emphasis on the POSSIBLE) debts because of too much things. or are we just really having a very shitty recession this year? pero wala pa naman. but still AYOKO MAGKARON NG UTANG.
-nagfo-falter ang trinain ko before. at they already received too much criticisms from a lot already. yes, i am disappointed. pero ayoko namang itodong ireprimand sila, kasi ayoko--again, ayoko ng too much of something... kasi masakit yon. words of encouragement ang ginawa ko and introduced alternative options for them. i just hope they transcend
-where are the people when you need them the most?
-i can't believe i was really thinking about every detail of this event since may and i had drafted a whole book just for the success of this thing tapos biglang ganun na lang?
-why do we put a lot of attention on issues when we know that they just create a lot of fuss that could possibly end friendships/relationships? gossip is very real but do we really need to engage in all that fuss para lang masabi na ok ako na tao? na ako ang kampihan mo? na dito ka kasi cool ako? sobrang immature.
-back hurts a lot nowadays. sumusumpong muscle spasms ko. no stretching exercises my doctor prescribed me to do.
-ang sakit lalo na sa mga panahon na binibigyan mo ng halaga ang isang bagay pero mas pipiliin na lang ng ibang taong bastusin 'to.
-real baaaad choices. BAKIT SIYA?!
-ayokong sisihin ang ibang tao. let's just say it happened and we need to find a solution to solve this.
-paano kung importante ang lahat ng bagay? anong uunahin mo? ordo amoris pa rin?
-pms.nominations.flagship projects.thesis.last 16 units of my college life that can possibly grant me that prize of a latin honor... o pwede ring di na maabot yung latin honor--thus goodbye possible scholarship sa medschool--thus goodbye magandang medschool--thus hello davao city--thus hello corporate world na lang. or hello tambay sa bahay. :(
-so many things to do with so little time.

masakit na ang lahat-lahat. i miss the comforts of my own home. i hope to still keep my sanity safe from inhumanity (huh ano daw? nabaliw na?).

pero sabi nga ni santino, may bukas pa. sana nga may bukas pa.