Haay naku. Hanggang ngayon hindi ko alam kung paano magpareserve ng mga venues. Alam ko kung paano magpareserve for a certain class. Pero, kung org activities na, oh well... Di ko alam. Wala akong idea. As in, nada.
I'm supposed to know that! Umattend kaya ako ng Sec-Gen seminar last summer! HAaaaah... Nada na naman... Nada!
Perteh naman talaga oh. And now, I'm supposed to reserve venues for rehearsals that will begin next next week and will run until January 2008. Hmph... I must get through this. I need to find a way.
Honestly, I have issues when talking to someone (especially kung sa isang office--na kung saan nag-iinquire ako about a certain thing). I can't really point out what that certain issue is, but then I always see myself stepping away from that situation every time I can. Ayokong kumausap sa stranger. Siguro hanggang ngayon narito pa rin 'yung "hiya" factor sa akin. Maniwala man kayo o sa hindi, lack of self-confidence kung baga.
DO I REALLY LACK SELF-CONFIDENCE? Most of my high school batch mates (or school mates) may disagree. Basta Danica, makapal ang mukha. Eh kasi naman noh, comfortable na ako with them kaya ako confident sa mga ginagawa ko. Eh ngayon, kaharap ko na ang halos kalahati ng populasyon ng Pilipinas. Nasa harap ko na 'yung semi-real world. And I suddenly feel my tongue getting smaller and smaller and smaller until it disappears.
(nail biting childhood years playing in my head)
I hope I can get through this.
I know I will.
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